Wednesday, January 7, 2015

"Dementia: A Transformer"

Well I must has been more than a few months since I've posted.  Mother's 86th birthday has come and gone.  Dementia still insists on transforming our precious matriarch into someone who can hardly recognize her family and friends.  It is a rarity to hear her call my name now.  Her words have become mostly "jibberish" but still has some choice, distinguishable words thrown in; displaying that "Mema" humor we all have known and loved.  Even the words to her favorite hymns are becoming aloof.  The last of her beautiful white teeth, have now broken off or fallen out, leaving only stubs to chew on.  I glance at her hair, fingers, nose, eyes...every bodypart, a reminder of our past life together as mother and daughter.  Many times, people will ask how mother is doing.  I answer, "As well as to be expected, just doesn't know us anymore."  Their reply back is usually "Well, at least you still have her!"  I've heard that conversation at different times and situations in my life before, just not about my own mother. Now, I actually know what it means.  It has to be a selfish need though, granting it is one of love.  Even if she doesn't have a clue as to where she is, or who she's with, we are still able to go visit her and can see, touch and feel our mother's body.  I still want this.  I do know that possibly, a time will come, when I won't.


  1. Thank you for sharing. We experienced this with my mother-in-law a few years ago. It is never easy when a family member has dementia. But, it helps to talk or write about it. You take one day at a time and be grateful for what has been and the moments you will share again. May God's grace cover you and your family.

  2. I am truly sorry to hear about what has happened to your mother. Perhaps, there are certain realities of age that we have to face and come to terms with at some point. With that comes the responsibility of helping guide our elderly into further understanding their condition at that moment in their lives. Thanks for sharing that, Jean! All the best to you!

    Michelle Simmons @ Fairfax 211 Comfort Keepers